REVIEWED BY: Ms. Cairo
MY RECOMMENDATION: YES
AMAZON SUBSCRIPTION LINK: The Blog of Innocence, by Chris Al-Aswad
WEB ADDRESS: http://www.theblogofinnocence.com/
BLOG DESCRIPTION: The Blog of Innocence is a chronicle of essays and meditations on social technology, science, writing, art, and life. I'm an essayist, novelist, and occasional poet.
MY REVIEW: This blog is well-written, and is aimed at the intellectual. (One does not have had to go to college to appreciate the writing and the themes, but a college-level education, independently acquired, will suit the bill as well.) Highly recommended - it will give you much to think about.
Earlier today, it was the heat
bearing down on us . . . the heat like a thousand rattlesnakes hissing in the continuous burn of the sun. I slept well past noon, I shouldn't have, but when I awoke and went outside, it didn't seem to matter that I was unconscious, possessed by dreams I don't remember.
Much of my life is fixated on the missing things, what I don't have. As if projected on a screen in front of me, everywhere I go, I see what I am not, I see what I do not have.
I believe that if life is ironic in any way, it is ironic in how the things we deeply want, the things we pine for, are withheld from us at about an arm's length. What I mean by this is, in any moment your life can change, and that which you desire could easily stand before you. Not many times, but sometimes this happens, when our wishes come true and the world seems like a dream.
But for the remainder, we are nomads in the desert, experiencing mirages daily.
The heat effects the senses by a wrinkle, creasing the air until it feels like a blanket were wrapped over my head.
I have searched for objects far and near to hold my attention. Could this be related to the irony of life? That nothing ultimately holds our attention?
There is, however, a singular devotion that each of us can call our own. We become it over a lifetime, and this must be how a human soul can take on a definite form, and that form can be embedded in history.
The heat crawls, it moves across stunned windowpanes, and thick asphalt. And nothing is like the silence in summer, where the heat settles on parks and baseball diamonds, in suburban backyards, and fields of crops extending to the highway.
The heat waits, it lingers, and as it lingers, it grows, layer upon layer . . .
I'm easily distracted by the sun. It makes me want to go inside after a short while. I take refuge in the air conditioning of the hopeless cafe. Maybe I will see some more beautiful women who will avert their eyes when I look at them . . .
We remember our lives in a certain kind of narrative. That narrative proceeds from a point and moves forward. And then it drops off at the present and seems to hold that note forever, and we hear the monotonous note again and again, and that is the present.
The irony is that, as humans, we are condemned to living this incomplete dream. One part of the dream is real and the other part, unfinished. For the unfinished part, we busy ourselves with imagining new endings in countless ways. Summer abides in these moods of sweltering languor, when desire is shunned by the heat and souls are forced to move inside--
It is there I find my singular devotion. Where hours are abundant and empty, and every room reminds me of the bedroom I grew up in.
True splendor lies in recognizing the thing you've always had. All the longings, cravings, and wishes fall off like scales . . .
And while the heat is stirring outside the window, and the fields shimmering in the sun, I'm liberated inside my house, the dullest place in the land, a container of restless boredom on most days . . .
Ecstatic--because for the first time I am in possession of the part of the dream that is real.
--When I'm at the library
--After two days of steady rain,
--A Chronicle of Essays and Meditations
--With the Passage of Time
--Taking off the Mask
--On Blogging and Technology for Writers
Ms. Cairo writes several blogs including:
Seaborn: Oceanography Blog
Star Trek Report: Space Sciences
Topical Murder and Dated Death
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